FindingSomeLight

I apologize for being so sad lately, but this slump will end soon, I hope. 

I keep putting on my armor, but it never seems to be enough. It's getting dented. I'm still putting it on, hoping it will protect me, but it has proven to be a difficult journey.

Every day is getting a little harder and a little better. I've found friendship, but when it is absent, the sadness and depression consumes me. I constantly find myself at the airport watching the airplanes take off, wishing that I was in the cockipit, or rather that I wasn't here on this earth.

I constantly find myself wandering where the off switch is. It pains me to feel so alone, and I can't break that slump. I'm ready for something new, and something to bring me forth from this sadness.

To add, I have been looking into a diabetic support group, but sadly I missed their meeting date for this month. Damn it, I could really use some extreme support right now. The fake smiles I'm putting on are getting harder and harder each day. I was near letting myself slip into an unmangaged low last week, but my friend (B) has been there for me. I hate complaining to him, but I crave his pressence unlike anything else. In a nutshell it revolves around the fact that he actually cares. He is unlike any friend I have ever had. I would consider him my best friend, even if I am not his. I've found something worth living for right now. I'm still looking for other things, but in the mean time, he is helping more than he will EVER know.

For now I think I am going to go watch the airplanes. Have a good day, I'm trying.